The Light of Letting Go. {Poetry}

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Are there spaces inside your body that hold onto old tales?

 

Words fall stagnate,

pebbles tossed to the way side,

skipped across puddles,

as you change,

effortlessly it seems

for days pass into days

and, one afternoon

the wintry light angles across the room

exposing little pieces of dust

like the stuff in your mind

during writer’s block

it’s as if the dust collected into bricks

golden and heavy

weighing down your thoughts,

as you try

to throw them away

with new stories,

new songs

singing into your ears,

lyrics floating up inside your dusty brain,

cleansing the soul

for it’s not just there that you live,

for it’s not just in the neurons,

but in the touches

of fingers,

of toes,

of laughter

lingering in the soft light of winter

where you decide

to get up,

and let go of the stories

that held you back.

~Jessie Zanita

 

Poet’s Note:

Well, hello, there!

Where the hell have you been?

Um, I got lost.

So what does a writer do? Write free-flow poetry.

Write a new story.

As this old year fades into dust, what is the story that you’ll write in the upcoming year? 

Happy New Year to all of you!

~ Jessie

 

Jessie Zanita  ©  2018

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Don’t even think of saying “Hello.”

Hang up.

Delete the number.

Erase the text you were about to send.

“I was wondering if after all these years you’d like to meet.”

I know. I know. Adele’s lyrics are gorgeous: an emotional land mine tearing through your body. The music pulses with the possibilities of rekindling a lost love, old moments of fun, and the bravery of reaching out.

The beautiful song is like a damn Pavlov experiment—you know, the experiment about the dog and the bell—but do you truly want a song to create a conditioned response to reach out to old lovers?

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“Did you ever make it out of that town where nothing ever happened?”

Come on, don’t give in!

Yes, but you do, and it hits you because the song comes on while you’re waiting for the bus, and you’ve got time, so you pull out your phone.

“It’s no secret that the both of us
Are running out of time.”

Stop, don’t do it!

Listen, here’s the undeniable truth for at 99.9% of us—those old flings, lovers, boyfriends, girlfriends are over. A chapter of life that’s closed. Finished. Page turned.

All those lovely moments live in the past. You are alive now, not yesterday.

We can’t get those tantalizing times back even as much pleasure as those connections brought (as well as the pain they probably caused you, and the other person).

Trust me, I tried, once.

My cheeks still burn red when I think of that impulsive self-inflicting attempt which turned out to be an epic embarrassment because my curiosity about the fuzziness of past events were insatiable.

My “Hello” turned out to be a total foot-in-my-mouth situation that I’ve since learned to laugh (and still blush) at it instead of cringing with annoyance for being so pushy.

And yet, Adele’s “Hello” pulls at the heart strings.

“To tell you I’m sorry for breaking your heart.”

Yes, the lines are stunning, but be honest: really listen to her last line.

“But it don’t matter it clearly doesn’t tear you apart anymore.”

Hang up.

Delete the number.

Erase the text you were about to send.

Instead listen to Adele’s mesmerizing voice, enjoy the memories, and step into the now.

Copyright 2015 © Jessie Wright

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